Sub Space Searching

Jan 13, 2011

Best of the Blogworld this week: Please visit these!

So I'm finally "almost" caught up reading the 30 or so blogs that I try to keep up with. I'm MAKING time to read...and it's just worth it...sooo worth it. I thought I'd share a couple posts that really stood out...made me think...made me feel. I highly recommend both of these blogs to anyone who appreciates good honest writing.

http://adauntlessjourney.blogspot.com/2011/01/doing-it-right.html?zx=61c5677fbc9596

http://jakeskajira.blogspot.com/2011/01/needing-to-be-prey.html

And for lovers of beautiful imagery...check out the video on this post...gorgeous and intoxicating:
http://www.alternativemindsets.co.uk/2011/01/music-box-doll.html

Enjoy!
Hawk (subspacesearcher)

Jan 12, 2011

Deep Thought: How being overwhelmed by Real Life affects Subs

"Just Shoot me"

"Just Kill me"

"Put me out of my misery"

"Calgon take me away"

"I just don't care anymore"

"Stick a fork in me"

All things that most of us think or say when Real Life gets overwhelming. Whether its work, family, money, or all those little "issues" that seem to hit all at once...there is a tendency to just need to MAKE IT STOP! I had one of those days yesterday...almost felt like crying, almost felt like locking myself in my room and never leaving. It is at moments like this that many people reach for alchohol or drugs...some form of escapism.

For me, when I reach that point where I just can't cope, a very different feeling sometimes creeps in...I want to be beaten...I want to just wallow in the awfulness of the day and truly SUFFER...suffer so much that it washes all the other crap away. Being as submissive as I am, slipping into subspace is very easy to do. I can get there massaging feet...even just listening to my Goddess speak sometimes. But...

Subspace is actually so much more to me. It is a place where the only things that really matter are my service, my attention, my submission to the will, desire, and pleasure of my owner. It is a place of "cleansing...of sorts"...shedding all the rest of the world and its issues and problems in order to concentrate on the ONE person who you adore and worship. So...

I guess its not surprising that when the world gets to be too much...when vanilla life gets overwhelming...there is a natural "pull" or "yearning" to get cleansed by something powerful and strong enough to refocus and "let go".

Last night I told Goddess that I needed to be "beaten", to have the toil of the real life day erased with pain. I think this was something...an emotion...that was new to her. I'm so glad I was able to talk to her about it, and that conversation inspired this post. Also...

There is a Ying to this Yang. There is also a desire...a need to be held...caressed...cared for...probably much more common I'm guessing. I have those feelings too, like everyone. But they aren't exclusive. It's just that sometimes the need for comfort and the need for pain/suffering collide, and one may tip the balance.

My questions to you are:

For the subs, do you ever get similar feelings when real life gets to be too much?
For the doms, have you experienced this in your subs?
For the switches, can you understand what I'm trying to share here?
Is it selfish of a sub to have this type of desire or need to be "beaten" or "cleansed with pain"?
Is this just another bad way of escaping life...like drugs or booze?
Is this a destructive response to bad days or bad times?

This feeling doesn't happen much...usually doesn't linger that long either. But it's very real for me. Thanks for reading and I would appreciate your feedback :-)

Jan 9, 2011

Goddess Images

After working on the dungeon all day, we played with the camera a little. Here is a very artistic view of Goddess' most incredible foot....

And a capture of my service as Goddess relaxed at the end of the evening...with worship and a foot massage...

So much fantastic stuff has been happening. Goddess has brought up a more structured "training curriculum" and also her desire to begin some other areas of my development, in order to help me become her perfect slave. Much more to come!

The New Dungeon Playspace: Another step forward!

Well, Goddess and I worked ALL day yesterday on the new dungeon. As you can see, we made HUGE progress...even beyond what we expected.

You've already seen the desk in action from New Year's Eve, but we made some enhancements to it. We also were able to turn an old exercise machine into a functioning "Cross of Sorts".

I fashioned a place to hang Goddess' favorite hanging implements as well. We still have some decorative work to do, some safety checking with some of the equipment, and a couple more tricks up our sleeves. But I can tell you this is going to be a playspace worthy of someone as superior and fantastic as Goddess :-)

Definitely more to come soon on this very soon!

Jan 7, 2011

Fiction: Alone yet Not

It had been one week since I'd seen Mistress, and as I rang the doorbell, the frozen wind of mid January ran its chilled fingers through my hair. A tear slowly made its way from my eye. The door opened and I took a few steps in, far enough for the door to close behind me and knelt on the floor. Within seconds I felt my collar being tightly placed around my neck and heard the lock click shut. Just as fast I was shrouded in darkness as her favorite blindfold was pulled over my head and left snug over my eyes.

"Slide off your shoes and your coat slave boy." I heard her almost whisper. I did and then I heard my leash being attached to the ring hanging from the leather around my neck. "Follow me carefully on your hands and knees. We're going to the basement and I DON'T want you to screw up my fun by tumbling down the stairs." I felt the leash tugging at me, and followed it as she pulled me to the basement door. I very slowly crawled down the stairs behind her...one step at a time...making sure not to slip. Once at the bottom, she led me to the center of her lair. I could see nothing, but since I'd been there many times, I had a rough idea of where I was. I felt her pulling at my sweatshirt...up and over my head..."Stand up" she said almost inaudibly...and those were the last words I heard all night. The button on my jeans was undone...the zipper...and my pants fell to the ground. I stepped out of them.

What happened next still is left to my imagination...but all at once it seemed like there were hands all over me...and before I could even begin to decipher what was going on, I had cuffs on wrists and ankles...my legs were spread and held in place by a spreader bar...and my arms were raised up to the ceiling and fastened in a way that I was completely stretched out with no slack or wiggle room at all for any of my limbs.

I felt something cold pressed against the back of my neck and then heard the unmistakable sound of tape being ripped and then being pressed over the cold object...followed by my ears being stuffed with something soft. I hung there, blind and deaf for at least 5 minutes. Fingers prying my mouth open and...her favorite gag (I knew it well) was pushed into my mouth and tightened around my head severely. Then decibel by decibel...I heard music...electro dance music...louder and louder until it was filling my brain. An ipod had obviously been taped to my back and was now being pumped into my ears.

The Pick your Celebrity Dominant Game

Okay, so it's my day off...finished the laundry...went shopping for dungeon toys...and thought to myself...this blog needs a game. So, poured myself a Gin and Tonic and this is what I came up with.

I've got the pics of 10 celebrites below (5male/5female) that would be my Top 10 fantasy Dominants to submit to. In the comments pick one male and one female that you would choose from the choices listed...or WRITE IN YOUR OWN...but include a link so we can get the picture :-). I'm not including Goddess as she might like to play too...and would superceed any of these anyway :-)