NYE Reflections and a Pic

New Years's Eve has always been my least favorite holiday.  It probably goes back to high school...where it seemed every NYE ended with a broken relationship.  Within 5 years, I had been dumped 3 times and dumped someone twice...hehe...I know...wtf.  Well, NYE plans and excitement have mostly been a bust ever since then, probably because I haven't put much effort into them and pretty much shrugged off the holiday entirely.

This year, however, was more than special.  Goddess had just recently collared me (previous posts) and I actually had somewhere to go...people to spend time with...and someone to serve...and it was fantastic :-)

Goddess, her hubby, and I enjoyed some laughs and great food that she had made (all to die for).  We casually watched "Wild Hogs" which I hadn't seen, and really enjoyed.  I love William H. Macy and Ray Liotta (my favs).  So at some point Goddess had thoughts beyond the vanilla sit and chat and we retired down to the basement (soon to be dungeon) and experiemented with some bondage on the desk she plans on using in the new play space.  We also tried her gag which I LOVED...made me feel so possessed and submissive.

As you can see it's a classic older desk and big enough to stretch out my arms and legs (I'm 6'5").  Also, you'll notice that the dungeon is still in phase 1...lots to be done.  Goddess helped me welcome in the new year with the most severe spanking session she has given me.  She said several times that my pain threshhold for spankings is something we need to work on a lot in 2011.  She used most of her arsenal of spanking toys.  As much as I like the leather crop...it's not my favorite at the end of a session...ouchy.  A few minutes before midnight, she made sure I was secure and okay, and then went upstairs to bring in the new year with her hubby.  I was alone...chilled...and stretched out over the desk...alone with my submissive thoughts...and they were DELICIOUS :-)
As always I found subspace...sort of left my body.  When she returned she untied me and I was sore...had been tied to the desk for over an hour.  I knew my nipples weren't going to get a pass on such a special night and I was right.  It was chilly in the basement...so Goddess had the great idea of venting an old sweatshirt.  These little pink clothespins are my new favorites...they are strong and grabby and hold lots of weight.

By 1:15am I was lossing my ability to stay awake and still had to drive home.  So that was our NYE.  I drove home sore, with a stingy bum...tender nipples...a frustrated slutty cock (not allowed release)...and my subby brain all full of happiness.

Thank you for reading and enjoy this first day of the new year!  If you're reading, but not following the blog...please sign up...I'll luv you for it.  Membership has priviledges :-)

Songs that make you Wanna _______!

So, thought I'd try something a little different for New Year's Eve, a little more interactive and multimedia.  I'm gonna share some of the songs that make me Wanna ______.  Please leave yours in the comments, I'd love to check them out :-) I couldn't figure out how to have them open in a new window...so...it's "back button" time

Play Hard :  The Cure

Suffer : Sonic Youth

Have Sex : Prince

Dance :  EBTG

Make Out : George Michael

Have a nice depressing pity party: The Smiths

Smile : Flogging Molly

Cry : Julie Cruise

Be all Alone : Alexi Murdoch

Okay....your turn!

The Poll Results: Nipple Torture

And the results are in.  Your favorites are....

Fingers	7 (50%)
Mouth Teeth	7 (50%)
Clothespins	5 (35%)
Clamps	9 (64%)
Whips	2 (14%)
Floggers	2 (14%)
Quirts	1 (7%)
Weights	4 (28%)
Electric Wands	1 (7%)
Fire/Ice	1 (7%)
Needles	1 (7%)

The luvable "Clamps".  So many styles and levels of severity.  In honor of the results, here's a pic of Goddess's handywork with clamps and my new collar :-)

New Year's Resolutions

In addition to a host of personal habits and responsibilities that I have to my owner, these are the "extras" on my list of things to accomplish in 2011.

Okay...drum roll please...

1. To find at least one new and special way to please Goddess each month.  Something that will make her smile, please her in a way that brings a freshness and a newness to my service to her. (I'll gladly accept ideas :-)
2. To do everything I can to see Goddess's dream of her own private dungeon come to fruition.
3. To build a stronger, deeper, more meaningful network of others in the BDSM lifestyle.
4. To become more fit, lean, flexible so as to be able to serve Goddess better.
5. To more faithfully work on this blog so that it is a fitting tribute to my Goddess.
6. To make movies of my submission and share them.
7. To revive my photography hobby and use it to expand my world vision and to please Goddess with the images.
8. To meet, if only for coffee, 3 online friends in the real world...to merge the cyberlife with the reallife.
9. To go on some sort of retreat...completely non-vanilla (a 2 day seminar or event, camping, D/s lifestyle mini trip)
10. To expand and develop my submissive limits in the areas I am deficient (future post coming)
11. To share my submissive life with one vanilla friend...again an attempt to merge both parts of life...vanilla/non-vanilla...in order to spend less time going from one to the other...and spend more time in the BDSM lifestyle...out of the closet.

The Most Special Gift of All: A Collar

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