That Slutty Feeling

There have been several times in my submissive life, where after anal training or strap-on play...I've mentioned to my Domme that I've felt slutty...that I walk different for about 24 hours.  Something about being penetrated just brings on a mindset of...trying to attract gazes at my ass...trying to attract others who might be interested in having me.  More than anything, it's the involuntary change in the way I walk...the "slut walk".  Well Goddess and I haven't done any anal/ass play yet, but the shocking revelation I'd like to share is about panties.  Goddess had me wear some sexy panties last Friday night at the club (first time ever worn women's undergarments)...and they had/are having the same effect on me. 

She instructed me to wear a pair of panties to work today...which was a little strange for me to be sure...but I followed her instructions.  I noticed myself walking like a slutty teenager...striking poses...wishing people would see and desire my ass.  The best way to describe it is, all day today...in my head...I was walking and feeling like this:


My Goddess has brought out in me a very interesting deep rooted sexy feminine feeling.  It caused many erections over the course of the day...and had her on my mind all day.

Contemplations on Chastity and Being a Whore

It's been over 2 weeks since I've had an orgasm, and have no idea when my next will be.  Goddess has taken happy ownership over them.  I think about masturbating almost all the time...it interupts my other thoughts all the time.  So what do I do...I write the fantasy I just posted this morning.  It gets me soooo worked up and turned on, that I've read it 10 times.  To make matters worse, I have clothespins on my already sensitive nipples (still sore from Goddess 2 nights ago).  Self inducing the biggest, strongest erection I can ever remember having...like I have a donkey dick hanging from me under the desk....balls swollen with cum...mind realing...hormones pumping....knowing that there is no release in sight.

The life of a sub...who is also a whore...is a sweet, sweet, torture that never ends......